A friend’s Slack bot has a command that requests information from a variety of sources, and it took around 10 seconds to complete. The bot is written in Ruby, and while I know the basics of the language, I’m not familiar with the tooling, and haven’t worked on any non-toy Ruby projects.
But I wanted to speed it up. It’s an embarrassingly parallel problem, so when I saw that the requests were processed serially, some easy wins came to mind, that even I should be able to implement.
What do you do when you’re chronically depressed, and conventional treatment doesn’t help? Almost every single day, I’d think about ending my life. A few half-arsed attempts left me with unsightly scars, traumatised friends, and stacks of medical bills. I didn’t actually wish to die, but a life deprived of joy wasn’t very appealing.
I was in and out of mental hospitals, often involuntarily. I had to go on disability leave, since I could no longer do my job.
I did the hard part and changed my behavior, so why do I feel like rubbish? As counterintuitive as it seems, it’s probably a positive sign, but one that caught me off-guard.
The backstory I’ve struggled with disordered eating and dysmorphia for most of my life. I’d restrict intake, binge/purge, and overexercise. The things I would manage to keep down were not very beneficial either, from a nutrition perspective. I never for a second believed that this was healthy, but I wouldn’t know the extent of the damage until I reached the recovery phase.
Pre-transition, I had a website where I published my technical writing1. Due to life circumstances, I couldn’t keep it up, so I’m trying something different this time around.
I figured I’d just write about whatever the heck comes to mind, regardless of topic. I’ll write about mental illness and eating disorder. I’ll share my crap music and other art. I’ll post links to things no one else cares about.